Tuesday, July 5, 2011

What are we gonna do with Eve??

Eve has had an EXTREMELY difficult month or so.  I think it has a LOT to do with Ellie being in and out of the hospital, taking me with her.  Eve really never struggled with jealousy or insecurities when the twins came home from the hospital the first time.  I was really excited thinking that we had bypassed that difficult transition.  Let me just tell you that she is MAKING UP FOR IT NOW...and we are 6 months in!!  When Ellie was in the hospital for her 3rd surgery (unplanned and emergency), Eve spent some time with a lot of her favorite people, MiMi, YaYa, Grandma, Papa, and Daddy.  But she was missing her mama.  She started pitching ridiculous fits and talking about being scared to sleep in the dark with the door closed.  She didn't want to take naps, started talking babytalk, and wanting to be held and cuddled like Clara and Ellie.  That was a long week for my extended family...trying to help us with Clara and Eve while Eric was at work, and on top of that, dealing with a SILLY almost-three-year-old.  My mom stayed at the hospital one night with Ellie so I could come home to be with Eve.  It was bad.  I saw her acting like I never had before.  Screaming at the top of her lungs, kicking the floor in a tantrum, melting down, crying at the drop of a hat, and really just not herself.  We prayed, quoted scripture, had Eve saying Jesus' name, and hugged/rocked her during the fits.  It was exhausting.  She wouldn't let me out of her sight.  If I walked to the bathroom, she was right behind me.  She wouldn't sleep in her bed for naps or bedtime.  Then Eric went out of town for youth camp for a week.  We were at a loss... God revealed something to Eric.  He said, "if you wanted an adult, you should have had an adult.  You had a child, and this is how children act sometimes."  It started to make sense.  Parents are supposed to be teaching their children how to respond, how to deal with things that happen to them and their family.  Children are looking for stability and security from their mom and dad, and when it goes missing for a week with a sister in the hospital, then it is OK for them to be thrown off their normal.  And we need to re-create that safe haven for her, it's why we're here!  After the light bulb went off, Eric and I were able to see Eve in a different way.  During prayer one night at church, the Lord revealed to me that my goal should be to parent Eve the way the God parent's me.  So I began striving for more patience, more love, and less frustration and anger.  We put her on a blow-up mattress at the foot of our bed, and started letting her take a nap in our bed with the door open.  It takes her a while to actually fall asleep, and typically she will cry for me to lay down with her, but eventually, she will go to sleep.  SEVERAL times, I have gotten up to go to bed and found her laying in our doorway, asleep, on the hardwood floors.  She just wants to be in the same room I am in.  Poor thing.  She is really struggling.  She's not the same girl who used to go to bed at 7:30 in the complete dark with the door closed, singing and laughing to herself.  Our goal is to get back to that slowly, but surely :)  If God can do all things, He can do this, right??  Here are some pictures of Eve at naptime...




    


 

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